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TELL ME WHY -- that my father leaves the country, once again, without saying a word, AT ALL? This is actually the second or third time this happened. Why the fuck does this old man seem to neglect his two sons and run away? Is he trying to forget about us? Is he afraid of taking responsibility of something that he was forced to do?
I have so much accomplishments I want to tell this old man but he always dissappears to nowhere and the only way I find out that he is gone is when I call the restaurant and find out that "Oh, he's in China now". Tell me why the fuck does this man do this?
Who does he think he is?
And so, he pays for my school tuition. Don't ever the fuck say that I'm spoiled as fuck because it is his issue that he fucking ran away with another woman, causing my mother grief [which ended up in a divorce], married that other woman, had 2 children with that woman. Oh, here's the gist: through my whole childhood with my mother and this man, all he ever did was spend his money on fun and unneccisary shit. My mother paid for all the fucking bills while this fucking man ran off like a fucking player and gave money away to these fucking bitch ass whores. Should it be fair that he's paying for what he's never done during my whole childhood lifetime?
Oh yea, something else I wanted to tell him was that I finally got into driving lesson and learning to drive. Why? He was always pestering me about how I'm fucking lazy and never got my G2 driver's license. Well, guess the fuck what? I'm fucking getting it now, old man.
And why does this old man always make up shit about my life? No, I don't go to university. No, I'm not getting straight-ass A's in every fucking class. No, I'm not getting these imaginary scholarships every year. No, I'm not the smartest fucking person in all my fucking classes. Why the fuck does he go around lying to people about what's happening in my life? In the end, I end up lying about my fucking self, because I don't want to make a fool out of this old man.
It is no wonder why I sometimes get so fucking depressed, start getting dull, start getting suicidal. Someone save me ... Please?
Lame. Lame. Lame. Lame. Lame. FuckingLame.
2 comments:
hi solar~ wow sounds like the situation with your dad really sux~ but i'm really proud of you for letting it all out!! GOOD FOR YOU! as the koreans like to say... *fighting*
Wow, that's just terrible Solar, I didn't know your dad was like that. >_> Reminds me of mine in a way... But yeah we're here for you all the way.
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